the truth:

my biggest fear that no one knows
especially you

my biggest fear that i could never tell anyone is that i'll never truly get over you becuase i never truly gave us a chance. my biggest fear, is that i'll never move on and whoever i end up with will always be second best.

my only regret in life

never giving us a chance, never telling you how much you meant to me.
never admitting to myself how much you mean to me.

letting you walk past me this entire summer and think that my heart doesn't race everytime i saw you. letting you surf and not telling you how much i've always loved watching you. driving past your house after work and not stopping and walk straight to your door and tell you everything i've ever kept from you.

my heart aches when i think about what i've lost when it comes to me and you.
our relationship was like sand in my hand, and slowly but surely i let it slip through my fingers because i wasn't paying attention to it, because i didn't realize it would slowly run out.
this summer it finally ran out, you never gave me a second glance when you walked past me. maybe you've finally moved on, and i wish i could say the same.

that's the truth i've never spoken of until this moment.
that's the truth that will remain a secret.

I've been a little down lately.
College is not what I expected it to be.
I miss high school more than I could ever express in words.
I'm trying not to dwell on the past, I'm trying to look forward.
And I think I'm doing an ok job with that.
It's just hard.
Going to a school that you didn't really want to go to
SUCKS.
So, my advice, to all of you people in high school looking at schools:
Don't settle. Apply to as many schools as you want.
Find the few that you think you could be happy at.
Don't depend on one school, unless you know its definite.
Thats what I did and I got screwed big time.
And enjoy high school,
you'll look back one day and miss it. All the drama, everything.
You'll miss it one day. I promise you that.

So here's an update I don't know how long it's going to be.
I hope you enjoy it.
I'll try to update a little more often. But I have so much work to do.

Quote_love219

"because this is what happens when you try to run from the past. it just doesn't catch up, it overtakes, blotting out the future"

"life will always be easier if you do not linger in the past
and you smile through everything"

"there comes a time in every life when the world gets quiet and the only thing left is your heart"

"it seemed no matter where i turned someone was telling me to change"

quotessk

"we waste a lot of time running after people we could have caught by just standing still"
 -Mignon McLaughlin

"i may not have gone where i intended to go but i think i
ended up where i intended to be"

"i cannot even imagine where i would be today were it not for that handful of friends who have given me a heart full of joy. let's face it, friends make life a lot more fun"
-Charles Swindoll

"the words are coming i feel terrible. is it typical for us to end like this. am i just another scene from a movie that you've seen 100 times. cause baby you weren't the first or the last or the worst,and i've got to fill the blanks in the past with a verse.and we could sit around and cry, but frankly your not worth it anymore"

"cause nobody wants to go it on their own
and everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere"

"there's a lot that i don't know and there's a lot that i'm still learning
but i think i'm letting go"

yo0hndmex3

"sometimes you have something you need to say but you can't, because the words won't come out or you get scared or you feel stupid. so, if you could write a song, and sing it, then you could say what you need to say and it would be beautiful and people would listen and you woulnd't make a complete idiot out of yourself. but all of us can't be songwriters, so some of us will never be able to say what we're thinking or what we want other people to know we're thinking. so we'll never be able to get the chance to make things right again"
- Gilmore Girls

"she's pretty so everyone calls her a whore"

"and someone when you're on, you're really fucking on. and your friends, they sing along, and they love you. but the lows are so extreme that the good seems fucking cheap"

ank__quotes

"accept nobodys definition of your life, define it yourself"

"we get bigger, we get taller, and we get older. but, for the most part, we're still a bunch of kids, running around the playground, trying desperately to fit in"
-Grey's Anatomy

"you want to know what i believe? i believe the road less traveled is more beautiful. and i believe that everyone has that one place where they feel so safe, at home, and at peace"

short update.
i'll try this weekend maybe for a better one.
who knows.

PEACE

(i wrote this in the beginning of september, and apparently it was protected. LOL i'm so stupid. i thought it wa sup this entire time and it wasn't. so here it is now)

So I started school and such so updating is really hard now.
I'm not as into this as I have been in the past,
so I think for now I'm going to
take a break.
No one comments anymore, but that's not the reason I'm doing this.
It's hard to update and I have other things to do.
I'll try to do it every so often, when I don't have anything to do
or when I'm bored.

Thank you so much for all your support.
Don't give up on me, I'll try to sneak some updates in.

Have an awesome school year!

always,
Jaclyn

quotessk      qoutes234      yousaidforeverquotes     quotedom      clear_water_quotes     

"In a way, I need a change  from this burnout scene
another time, another town. another everything."

"Here's the weight of the world
on my shoulders, cause I found a
way to steal the sun from the sky.
Long live the day I decided to fly."

"Today you are you, and that is truer than true. There is no one alive that is you-er than you. So, be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."
-Dr. Seuss

"Call us old school. But sometimes the fairly tale requires the knight to get off his ass and saddle up his steed."
-Gossip Girl

"I know she can reference poets that I've never heard of, and I know that she sings this funny German nursery rhyme with her dad at the end of their phone calls, and I know that she has this tiny birthmark that looks like a little snoopy head. It's amazing. I know she's afraid of bees which I think is adorable, and you know, I know that I love her."
-My Boys

"I’m always happy when someone  wins a battle, because around here, you get your fair share of disappointment. I guess in the end, you have to fight for things that really matter, like pride in your work, or friendship. And sometimes, all you can do is grit your teeth and tell the truth."
- Scrubs

"May the wind always be at your back, and the sun always upon your face, and may the wings of destiny carry you aloft to dance with the stars."

"I wanna marry you because you're the first person I wanna look at when I wake up in the morning and the only one I want to kiss goodnight. Because the first time that I saw these hands, I couldn't imagine not being able to hold them"
- Definatley, Maybe

"Maybe, sometimes, it's easier to be mad at the people you trust because you know they'll always love you, no matter what."
- Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants

If I had wings, I'd follow you up there.

"After awhile, you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, and you learn that love doesn't mean learning, and company doesn't always mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts, and presents aren't promises and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child. And you learn to build all your roads on today, because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans and futures have a way of falling down mid-flight. After awhile, you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much, so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure, that you really are strong and you do have worth and you learn."

"I love him much more than I should, and yet, still nowhere near enough."
-Bella Swan

"Do you think any of us want to look into his eyes for the next 100 years if he looses you?"

"You know me too well that when I said I didn't love you,
You looked at me and said,
'Bull shit, you're just running away.'"

"So, tell me where I'm supposed to go from here. Because looking back you were all I had. I lost everything, I layed everything down for you."

"Think about how many people never get the one they want, but end up with the one they're supposed to have."

"You remind me of August, the way I still care about all the things that you promised."

"It's hard to believe we aren't those kids anymore, almost as hard as it is to believe we ever were."

"Too many people grow up,
that's the real trouble with the world."

"I think I'm falling asleep but then all that it means is I'll always be dreaming of you."
- Blink 182

"I want everything I lost"

"You didn't love her. You just didn't want to be alone. Or maybe, maybe she was just good for your ego. Or, or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life, but you didn't love her. Because you don't destroy people you love."
-Grey's Anatomy

"The United Nations reports that over ten thousand people starve to death each day, and most of you don't give a shit. However, what is even more tragic is that most of you are more concerned about the fact that I just said a bad word than you are about the fact that ten thousand people are going to die today."
-Tony Campolo

I know a pathetic little update.
But I couldn't find quotes that I really liked.
I wanted upbeat quotes and happy quotes, but those are hard to find.
I leave for school on Saturday.
I have a lot to do until then. So I don't know when I'm going to update.

Thanks sooo much for the comments!
I'm going to update tonight, and it'll be a pretty big one.
Keep commenting though :)